old post...

so much spinning in my mind
seems like i keep pushing the rewind button
no matter how bad i want to press fast forward
i cant figure out if im growning stronger or weaker
if im gaining or loosing
i just keep getting dizzy and everything becomes fuzzy
i want to be "crystal" clear
when the answers are right in front of me
i want to see them
when things get tough
i want to be stronger
when im beng lied to
i want to see the truth
ill be there one day....i hope

my body craves u..

my body craves it....
not just sex its self...
but sex with u..
it drives my body..
with passion,
i want your body against mine..
with nothing on..
feeling the warmth of your hands..
going all over my body...
you know your way around my body...
and it drives me crazy...
your kiss sends chills down my spine,
your touch makes me melt,
your bite makes me want more,
and your lick makes me tingle,
i crave to have sex with u...
its like my body needs it...
no one could ever measure up to the way...
u make my body feel...
i never imagined such a powerful bond or connection...
its like we were made to have sex together...
its torture to be away...
my body craves to be against yours...
to feel you inside me...
just writing this and thinking is torture...
i'm scared this desire will never go away....
i don't want it to but it has to...
my body craves u....

where is he?

where is he? this...this guy im in love with?
people always say, "i cant believe your still single"
...i dont see how they cant believe it?
don't they realize i have pain?
and realize i'm in love with a guy that doesn't exist?
why do i have to be with someone?
i don't want anyone...
along tome ago i swore id never date again...
and honestly i think it went to my head...
everyone says "ull find a better guy"
HA...i doubt that.
they cant even see the one im in love with...
well because he doesnt exsist...
i know he is there...somewhere
i feel his touch,
his presence.
and his whispers in my ear,
my heart knows him well...
yet i cant find him?
where is he? this...this guy i'm in love with?
everything about me longs for him..
yet i cant find him?
he must be in my dreams...
i'm taking it to far to reality...
maybe they're right...
he doesn't exist...
and i'm just dreaming...
wake up!
before they realize ur insane...

*to no one!! just a creation of mine*