..hhmmm

when i saw u i was afraid to meet u,
when i met u i was afraid to kiss u,
when i kissed u i was afraid to love u,
now that i love u, im afraid to loose u.

why the hell am i writing about u?!

u randomly send me a message on facebook sayin
so u and timmy huh?
and im like yea...ha (knowing u already knew we were together)
so i decide lets talk so we went on IM and u start
asking me questions.....and i ask u a question..u said no.
idk..just kinda felt like i was missing something
ugh...i try to be ur friend
i told u something really personal
and so did u....
i told u how is kinda jealous of u
and i asked u a question
and u got kinda snappy with me
and i told u i didnt mean anything by it
then we were ok and all
but u still erck me sometimes
my friend says ur territorial....-_-
i kno ur very protective of him
but ur not the only one!!!! :/
and then i told u how he might not hang out with JUST u
cause of my friends and my stupidness
and u freaked out!!
i apologized like 10 times!
and i told u i didnt mean for that to happen
and that i was trying to fix it....
now ur not even texting me...wtf?
eh....watever!! :P
god.im so fucking pathetic sometimes. lol

Airplanes by.B.O.B ft. haley williams

can we pretent that airplanes
in the midnight sky
are like shooting stars
i could really use a wish right now (wish right now) (wish right now)
can we pretend that airplanes
in the night sky
are like shooting stars
i could really use a wish right now (wish right now) (wish right now)

yeah
i could use a dream or a genie or a wish
to go back to a place much simpler than this
cause after all the partyin' and smashin' and crashin'
and all the glitz and the glam and the fashion
and all the pandemonium and all the madness
there comes a time where you fade to the blackness
and when you're staring at the phone in your lap
and you hoping but them people never call you back
but that's just how the story unfolds
you get another hand soon after you fold
and when your plans unravel
and they sayin' what would you wish for
if you had one chance
so airplane airplane sorry i'm late
i'm on my way so don't close that gate
if i don't make that then i'll switch my flight
and i'll be right back at it by the end of the night

can we pretend that airplanes
in the midnight sky
are like shooting stars
i could really use a wish right now (wish right now) (wish right now)
can we pretend that airplanes
in the night sky
are like shooting stars
i could really use a wish right now (wish right now) (wish right now)

somebody take me back to the days
before this is was a job,before i got paid
before it ever mattered what i had in my bank
yeah back when i was tryin' to get a tip at a subway
and bacl when i was rappin' for the hell of it
but now a days we were rappin' to stay relevant
i'm guessin that if we can make some wishes outta airplanes
then maybe yo maybe i'll go back to the days
before the politics that we call the rap game
and back when ain't nobody listened to my mix tape
and back before i tried to cover up my slang
but this is for the decatur,what's up bobby ray
so can i get a wish to end the politics
and get back to the music that started this shit
so here i stand and then again i say
i'm hopin' we can make some wishes outta airplanes?

can we pretend that airplanes
in the midnight sky
are like shooting stars
i could really use a wish right now (wish right now) (wish right now)
can we pretend that airplanes
in the night sky
are like shooting stars
i could really use a wish right now (wish right now) (wish right now)

i could really use a wish right now
i could really use a wish right now (wish right now)
like shooting stars
i can really use a wish right now (a wish right now,a wish,a wish,a wish
right now)

FUCK!!!!!! IM SO STUPID SOMETIMES!!!!!

fucckkkkk!!!!!
fuck pple!!!!!!
fuck everything!!!!!!!!
sometimes i just wish i couldnt talk!!!!!
i keep fucking everything up!!!!!!
with michael...my fault
michael again....my fault
zack incident....my fault
alie incident....my fucking fault again!!!!
i can never say the right thing!!!!
fuck talking!!!!!
im sooooo sry!!!!
bad things keep happening......
:( :'( :( :'( :( :'( :( :'( :( :'( :(

wtf is wrong with me?!

how did i fall back again!!??
almost cutting myself again?!
these feelings shouldnt even be here
these thoughts shouldnt be here
i dont want to go back to that....
burning myself seems to be my new thing....
i dont like it.
i dont want any of this....
i dont want to go down once again
but really i dont want to bring u down with me
what irrates me the most...
is that i fucking promised u i wouldnt
but i did...how can i fucking do that to u...
fuck....

....you

i love you.....
i miss you.....
i need you......
i want you.....
im always urs
forever and always
im not going anywhere
i promise...always
im still scared to loose you
but i swear im not going anywhere
no matter how something may bother me
ill talk to you and get over it.....
i dont want anything to interfear
block anything.....or scare us.
idk.....i just dont want to loose u
moreless anything between us.

.....why does it bother me so much!!!

blah....
i want no secrets between us,
i want to be able to talk about anything,
i want to kno that when ur hurting im the person u go to,
why cant i be ur best friend and girlfriend???!!!
ugh....
i hate talking about this,
i feel like im to pessuring,
i dont want to make u,
im gonna try not to bring it up again,
i love you
i dont want this to make problems,
i dont want this to bother me,
i want to not worry,
i want it to be nothing....